27 February 2008
Period - Sometimes makes history , sometimes makes Future.. But what is real meaning in dictionary...
Period -Life, and Death.
How I wish Death came before Life just as in a dictionary. Period.
Life will be really good if that happens.. God please rewrite your thoughts ... I wish that will happen in our next birth....
Who am I living for? Who am I trying to please?
Who is the one who controls my life?
Is there anything that I can do for myself?
Why am I trying to fool the world?
Am I the one whom I am trying to portray?
Is the life that I am living exactly what I would like to be?
Why does life have to be so confusing?
Why do these desires exist, why does this search live on?
Why is the heart so impatient, why is it so impulsive?
Should I live for my mind or my soul?
And finally, Is all this really worth it?
As always, disconnected thoughts...
28 January 2008
This is something that may be considered very lazy but I have to admit that some times the sense of being totally free and nothing to do can be very relaxing and refreshing in it self. In the hustle and bustle of our jet age which is so much dictated by schedule’s ,deadline’s , to do list and all sort of time table , u tend to miss the small details of life , things which may be very small and futile if u look at it in a logical way , but things that may give u a special kind of satisfaction , last night I did just that. Standing near beach and watching fireworks with mum and dad, now that may sound real boring or lazy stuff for some of you , but this is something I use to enjoy doing as a kid but as you grow up u tend to lose touch with that childish dreamy world and become more realistic goal oriented achievers or losers. but last night I again found the joy of being a kid when watching those wonderful fireworks up in the sky ,and day dreamed of being a astronaut flying on a mission to mars…. Sounds silly , but strangely I felt free from all the work , emotional stress I was in . Encouraged by this experiences today we ( mum, dad and Ram ) went to blue mountain, after a long time i got to hear a very sweet but now unfamiliar sound … a sound of a bird sing and the sound of a fluttering leaves , I had almost forgot that there are exist such sweets sounds too. In the hectic week ahead which will be full of sounds of vehicle’s honking in a traffic jam, people shouting at each other , managers giving more dead line and mobiles ringing . I will miss that sweet bird’s song and will long to count my stars .
